This week when I was studying I was thinking and pondering what I read and a thought came a cross my mind about the inconveniences about the gospel. Don't get me wrong I LOVE the gospel!! There is nothing I love more.. but I was thinking about the strictness of the commandments and the gospel, about how the differences with the gospel, and the world! And then I realized how that if we weren't able to choose.. or to sacrifice everything for the gospel that it wouldn't have the power to convert nations. I have been truly grateful for the gospel in my life and even sharing it with the African people! I am always reminded about how imperfect I am. And when you think about who we need to become like, Christ, I get a little down because of my imperfections. But every single time as I have prayed for guidance I'm filled with something that I cant explain. I feel the peace that the savior promises us as we seek diligently for him!
There is this scripture that says.. " any man that finds himself will lose his life, but if any man lose himself for my names sake he shall find it". I kind of never really understood this scripture, but I think I understand it a little more after this week. We all need to be willing to enter the refiners fire to be sanctified! There is no other way! I think Nephi said it best when he said "only under this head are we made free", but we must find him first! and to tell you the truth.. I've been always searching for myself. I have been always looking toward others to tell me who I am. And it hasn't been until the mission that I've really found who I am! I am a son of God! With talents and abilities that come from a Divine Father who is very aware of me and loves me!
I absolutely love my Father in Heaven!! He had been so kind and loving that I can not deny him or Christ!
My companion is doing great.. this is our last week together, and I don't know where, but I'm gonna leave cause it's transfer week. But we will find out soon! The area is doing great! We are teaching lots of people now, but the sad thing is that probably won't get to see them get baptized! But its all the same work I guess, and I'm excited for them! :)
I hope you all have a great week!! I miss and love you all!!